April 2009: I first started a blog on Blogger (Jen’s Losin’ It!). Do you know how much weight I’ve lost since starting that blog? NOTHING…but I’ve gained 30lbs.
April 2010: World stopped and changed forever.
April 2011: It’s ok to move forward. It’s ok to plan for the future. It’s ok to be happy again. It’s ok to take time for me.
You may have noticed I haven’t been very consistent. At all. I find myself looking backwards instead of looking forward. It’s time I start taking care of me, before there’s nothing else left to take care of and my own kids have to deal with the grief I’ve had to deal with over losing a parent, but unlike my Dad; I’m killing myself.
When I started this blog, I did it for a new chapter in my life. To do that, I need to stop dwelling on the past. Stop looking back to how I used to be, stop comparing myself to how I was 4 years ago. Stop comparing myself to everyone else. Stop trying to be someone I’m not. It’s time for a fresh start.
So, for today, this is day 1. It doesn’t matter how many times I have stopped and started on this journey before; today is day 1. Today is the day I will look back on and say “once upon a time I had a weight problem and was over 200lbs, but I conquered my weight.”
How am I going to be successful? Just like the title of my blog: one day, one meal, one choice at a time.