Tomorrow is April 1st. April 13th is the one year anniversary of my dad’s death. I really don’t know how to handle this. Today was such a day of emotion and tomorrow it’s going to get even worse. In the cemetery my dad is buried in, you have to wait at least 6 months before placing a headstone and then you can only place them between April-October. Since 6 months was in October, we missed the time frame and now we are faced with placing and ordering the headstone. My brothers, mom and myself are heading to the funeral home tomorrow afternoon to do this. I don’t want to go. I don’t know if I can do this.
I am trying to focus on positive things, because I think that’s the only thing that will get me through this next month. Although I did think about digging a hole and staying there until May…
Breakfast: My first try at overnight oats: coconut milk, cherry pomegranate fage yogurt, chia seeds, oats and a banana on top. It was ok, next time I will go without the milk and see if i like it better.
Lunch: Chunky chicken salad from Trader Joe’s, crackers, carrots and mini peppers for dipping and an orange for dessert.
After this publishes, I’m heading to snuggle with the husband and watch Gossip Girl from Netflix 🙂